I just can't seem to shake it.
I am always wondering if I'm making the best decisions for you,
or if you feel like I'm working hard for you.
I feel like I'm walking in circles most days,
to keep everything in line,
and working smoothly.
From the second I hit the ground running in the morning
until I lay my head down at night
I wonder what I need to do so that you know.....
that you are loved and cherished
with all of my heart and soul.
that it bothers me I can't spend my days with you
to teach you and make memories with you.
that I try so hard to keep it together,
but somedays it feels as though I'm falling apart.
that I get upset that the weekends are often filled
with projects and work that can't get done during the week.
that I'm doing my very best and I often doubt myself.
These are things that I think of often as a newer parent,
and I worry that I'm the only one. I know that I can't be---
but others just make it all look so easy.
I worry for my son to have everything he needs---
but most of all to know that I love him,
and that he changed every ounce of my life for the better.
Why do we carry these worries around day in and day out?
Will they ever go away?
So many questions to ponder about being a parent, and so many questions go unanswered.
For now, I must trust. Trust myself, and believe that there is no need to worry.
You got this! He totally knows he's loved and cherished :)
ReplyDeleteAwe, thank you! I appreciate you reading and commenting! I just need to remind myself that I've got this too! :)
DeleteYou got this! He totally knows he's loved and cherished :)
ReplyDeleteIn the unofficial parenting handbook it says that you will always worry about your child-it's natural. I would say this too shall pass, but that would be a lie. you will always worry.
ReplyDeleteI really could use the official handbook... :) Worrying is no fun! Thanks for your honesty and your words. I appreciate you stopping by and leaving a comment!
DeleteI think that the worrying shows that you are doing an amazing job. If you weren't worried about doing it right, that would be a concern. We all make mistakes as parents. It's how we react and respond to them that will matter. You will clearly do so in love.
ReplyDeleteI think that the worrying shows that you are doing an amazing job. If you weren't worried about doing it right, that would be a concern. We all make mistakes as parents. It's how we react and respond to them that will matter. You will clearly do so in love.
ReplyDeleteThanks Aileen! Sometimes I know that to worry is just part of the job, but other times it's hard to face.... especially with the first kiddo. There is so much new territory! :) I appreciate you stopping by and for your sweet words!
DeleteOne of my very first slices was about worry lines. In it I quoted Gari Meachum. "Worry is like a rocking chair - it consumes a lot of energy and takes us nowhere." As a mom and a teacher, I worry a lot. As a Christian, I know I shouldn't. Here is my original post if you wish to read the rest of it. http://adayinthelifeof19b.blogspot.com/2013/07/worry-lines.html I have young adult children and I don't think we ever stop worrying...the worrying just changes.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing this. I also love that quote. I need to spend more time living in the moment. Thanks so much for the comment and for stopping by! I appreciate your words.
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